It was a mud pie, dusty ground swirled
into water from a brass nozzle. I mixed
a thick concoction to please my eye.
Delicious would never be an
I found the ones that sparkled
hidden among plain granite pebbles,
quartz chips, slips of mica, only those
that caught my eye were treasure
for my pocket.
I peddled hard uphill, long
and slow, patient for the payback,
quick though it be, a fly down,
foot push paused, eyes squinting
against summer air across my face.
Ease of childhood’s wonderment
weeps efficiently through my grasp
to leave behind hardened opinions,
germane novelties, stilled wheels.
I set aside wide-eyed wonders
where magician coins awed,
grass stained knees scouted out
crawlies, tender arms rocked
a goodnight tale. I forgot
there is no need to orchestrate.
I turn back, shake off the dust,
open my palms,
liberate my tunnel vision
to meet your sweetness
of my return.
“Truly I tell you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will never enter it.” Mark 10:15
As I grew into adulthood, I left behind something dear. The wonder of play and nature became a frivolous activity left for vacation time. But the more tragic part of growing up was assuming that I needed to control my life. I forgot the freedom of leaving my worries in the hands of someone more compassionate and wiser and loving than myself. I forgot there is Someone who knows me inside out, my needs, and what I can be.
I believe our Holy One gave us our child time to get good practice in surrender, leaving worry to itself. It was the time to trust and learn to live with abandon the gifts we’ve been given.
May I fall back into childhood simplicity,
that I may see your face, feel your embrace
and know all is well.
Amen. Amen. Amen.