I like to walk at night in the dark so I can see the stars. They give me hope. Or, I walk in the morning well before the sun rises, before the creamsicle glow announces a new day.
In those hours I feel safe surrounded by that which I cannot see, but trust my dear beast will protect me if need arises. I want to feel the chill and be enveloped in the vast deepness and blazing silence where truth is hidden in the promise of hope. You know hope, those little twinkling lights I can only see when it’s dark.
Tonight on our walk I held a small stone to my chest, next to my heart where the energy of that swirling green chakra resides, the entry into Spirit, my Love. And I asked for all my fears deep within the darkness of my soul, all my hates that tighten my chest, all the hurts that have been hurled at me and captured – I asked that this simple stone be the chariot, the wagon, the wings to take this pain and hold it for a moment.
I walked with my mantram soothing my mind and giving time for those unwelcome guests to surround my tiny rock and attach themselves.
Under the skies sprinkled with hopes, I released the stone to Earth Mother. She will welcome that teeny piece of her back home again. She will do what she does best. Pachamama will take what no longer serves me, that which I have allowed to hold me in its grip, and she will cleanse it. Those hurts and pains and fears will become new soil in which to plant. Our sweet Mother will take them and bury them deep within her for transformation.
And in the promised spring, there will be richness to welcome new growth and life and beauty.
I will trust Spirit and give myself fully.
I will be a voice for beauty and song to fill the world with hope.
I will honor life and use my actions, everything I do, to uplift and offer more hope.
I will walk on Pachamama with grace and gentleness in gratitude for all I have been given.
I will live simply in work and play and all I do to keep my heart free and clear to receive more so I can be a watercourse for Spirit back into the world.
This day and everyday
may I speak impeccably.
May I work with honesty.
May I make art with a joyful heart.
May I forgive with ease and humility.
And may I love without exception.
This night and every night,
I bless you all and
all who pass this way
with peace and compassion
in great gratitude.
Thank you Lexanne.
I am in a most stressful time of life and right now the idea of pouring this stress, sadness and grief into one of my beloved rocks I have collected and leave behind in my little dry creek to return to mother earth to become soil for new beginnings does give me hope and comfort. Love to you as you journey and share with all of us who cannot put into words what is deep inside.
Oh, Ann, my heart is with you. I hold you in prayer and love. Thank you for your kind words. Much love, Lexanne